Pang - amphibian. says:
ahhahaha problems?
u have no right to demand anything from me says:
haha nothing i can't deal with

My art is weakening. I can tell from the glances that others see something but is puzzled by what they see. I wonder what they see...

My mask can't last forever and I wonder why it's crumbling at this time when I've survived everything. I survived when people cut themselves, hurt themselves, start smoking, start taking drugs, start sleeping around, start taking pills... Its just like trying to "heal" depression by giving medication. You are faced with emotions and sensations that you have to give ur entire attention to fight so that you get distracted from the present.

I am as good as, if not better than you. I know this so don't try to fucking make me believe a lie. Don't lecture me how to be me if you are such a failure of being a human being.

Guys are such idiots. I had a nice dinner with the meanies. Quite good except that they are still at the stage of playing mind games. I wonder why guys love them and I wonder why alex haven't grown out of them. Keep talking about porn and hot girls infront of dav. And it is upsetting to see dav when he turns away. So we began talking about Jude Law and yep I did my best to help dav get back at him. Fuck those guys. Want to talk about these type of things infront of their friends and even infront of their gfs. I wanted to twist his fucking neck and apologise to dav as well as swear never to do it again. Well, it's also dav for accepting that and not telling him how she feels anyway. She says "Well all guys do that amanda". My fucking ass. Then ask them to fuck each others' asses since they are such fucking horny bastards.

I met Ghim Khoon on the bus. It was such a coincidence that I was thinking about them guys this morning. He kept complaining that Faipang is neurotic. O well welcome to eminem. Then we continued talking about Jinsheng. He's still with his gf of cos... for 4 or 5 years alr! Sigh.. still remember y I liked him... He didn't even look at girls when he's with the guys cos he was so in love with his gf even after so many years! Always say his gf better. Such a great guy... And I guess I liked him cos of his devotion ironically. But Ghimz said they are having some problems so might not last too. =( O well... but he invited me to watch them play soccer on Sundays! YAY! Hopefully I can drag faipang away from his computer long enough to go with me...